Beating cancer to death with a toothpick

I admit, I have days where I feel like we are beating this cancer to death with only a toothpick. It's a LONG, SLOW process and time seems to be moving at a snail's pace. Then, I do have days where I can finally see the light at the end of the tunnel. (At least the light at the end of chemo). Today, was an odd combination of feeling both.

I looked at my calendar this morning and for the next few months, it was empty except for chemo appointments. As you know, I'm a planner and I like to have a lot of activities planned but unfortunately we've had to clear the schedule. I found it quite depressing. So, I decided to look at my glass as half full and plan some activities since we are officially halfway through with the chemo treatments. But then moments later I realized that in my lifetime, so far, I've had 15 chemo treatments. Really, 15 chemo treatments in my lifetime...no wonder I feel like I'm beating cancer to death with a toothpick. Well, if I've had 15 treatments so far, and I only have 3 more, heck I'm WAY more than halfway done, right?

Then, today as I put my mind back to planning some adventures when this is all I over, I constantly came back to the one thought regarding how quickly life changes. Just a few months ago, I was like all of you getting ready for the holidays, shopping and decorating and then bam.....someone says "you've got cancer."

Since the last cancer go-around in 2001, Todd and I try to live life and not put off things that make us happy. You dont know what tomorrow will bring and it pains me to clear my calendar the next few months of things that we have been so looking forward to like a weekend at the Post Ranch Inn, or for me learning to ski, or attending Frozen Dead Guy Days ( check it out, you will want to go). So, I've decided to put this challenge out to you my dear friends....I challenge you to think of something you have been wanting to do but put off for no good reason (no good reason like I dont have the time) and get it done before my last chemo treatment (March 25th). Go out and do it my friends. Life changes to quickly.

Of course, you MUST share your stories with me as you take on this challenge because I need to live vicarously through you for a few months. Think about it my friends. Who's up for the challenge?? Tell me about the fabulous destination you have been putting off traveling to and book that damn trip. Or tell me about how you've always wanted to learn to speak Italian and you've just signed up for a course. What ever it is, "just do it." (Gosh, someone should snap up that "just do it" slogan, it sounds pretty good.)

(By the way, Bonnie Jean, you are excluded from this activity because I know what you have been wanting to do for a long time, and you finally did it. I am so proud of you and you will find your next great adventure soon.)

Lots of love.